“I called Megan. I was like, “You’re not here for me,” he revealed in a shocking confession.
Machine Gun Kelly described an embarrassing phone call he made to Megan Fox shortly after his father’s death in 2020 – a call in which Kelly put a rifle in his mouth and almost pulled the trigger.
The musician made the confession in his new documentary about Hulu, “Machine Gun Kelly’s Life In Pink”, revealing a very dark moment in his life after his father died on July 5, 2020.
“I flew to my father’s apartment to clear all his things. I had this really weird conversation with this neighbor who told me all these things I didn’t want to hear, and it annoyed me even more because I couldn’t. Don’t shut yourself in, “said Kelly, who has talked about difficult relationships in the past. with his father because of his disobedience as a teenager.
“I didn’t leave my room and I started getting very, very, very dark,” Kelly continued in the document. “Megan went to Bulgaria to make a movie and I started getting this really wild paranoia. Like, I kept getting paranoid that someone would come and kill me.”
“I would always sleep with this rifle by my bed. One of the days when I just, hell, clicked. I called Megan. I said to myself, “You’re not here for me.” I’m in my room and I’m crazy about her, “he recalls. “I put the rifle in my mouth. And I shout on the phone and it’s as if the barrel is in my mouth. And I go to tilt the rifle and the bullet, when it comes back, the shell just jams.”
Saying that Fox was “like a dead man in silence” at the time, he said he realized then that “something was wrong” – pointing to his own head. He said that both Megan and his daughter Cassie came to him separately and also expressed concern – telling him: “I want to be able to see in your eyes, I no longer want to talk to you through a veil. I want to see you as my father, I want to see you as my future husband. “
“And I said to myself, ‘I have to kick drugs, this time for real,'” said Kelly, who did not mention whether he had used drugs elsewhere in his history at the time.
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The rapper said he visited his father in the hospital a few days before his death, but his father did not believe that Kelly was actually there. The last thing he said to me, “Colson … you’re not here. Am I in heaven? ”Said the musician, whose real name is Colson Baker. He said, “You’re not here, but I like seeing you right now.”
“I had this conversation with him, even though he was obviously just leaving. But I turned around and said, “Dad, I love you so much and I’m sorry about how we lived this life together. do better next time, ”Kelly said. “He thought he was in heaven, he thought I was an angel.
In the document, Kelly also praised Fox for becoming “like the sun to me,” someone around whom she “revolves and gives me life and helps me grow.” He praised her for inspiring his music, adding that “the passion between us is simply unearthly.”
“I know I’ve known her in so many other lives,” he said. “That’s what makes my pen move so much.”
“The Life of the Kelly Machine in Pink” is now airing on Hulu.
If you or someone you know is struggling with depression or has had thoughts of hurting yourself or taking your own life, seek help. The National Suicide Prevention Line (1-800-273-8255) provides 24/7, free, confidential support for people in need.
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